Lorde has revealed that she’s stopped taking pills for her longterm mystery illness even though she “aches all the time”.
In a recent newsletter to her fans, the 26-year-old shared that she had ditched the medication she had been on for the past ten years.
“The little yellow pill I took every morning for thousands of mornings since I was 15, I stopped taking it five days ago," Lorde wrote in her newsletter on Wednesday (September 20). "Gonna see how it goes.
“My body is really inflamed; it’s trying to tell me something, and I’m trying to support it, but nothing seems to help, and I get frustrated," she explained.
“My gut isn’t working properly. My skin is worse than ever. I’ve gotten sick half a dozen times."
Lorde then acknowledged that she had neglected “listening to her body" for most of her life.
“I realised earlier this year that listening to my body is hard for me, it’s something I never really learned how to do," she admitted.
“I’ve been trying to teach myself that this year, but it’s been hard, actually pretty confronting, has made me fully aware of all the times I ignored it or didn’t give it what it needed, shamed it for a fight or flight response, took a handful of pills and pushed through."
In addition to her health update, she said has been “living with heartbreak again”, adding: “It’s different but the same.”
Lorde, who has been in a relationship with music producer Justin Warren since 2016, continued: “I ache all the time, I forget why and then remember.
“I’m not trying to hide from the pain; I understand now that pain isn’t something to hide from, that there’s actually great beauty in moving with it. But sometimes I’m sick of being with myself."
Despite the challenges, the star who has counted pal Taylor Swift as someone she turns to when she feels down, remains optimistic.
“I know I’m gonna look back on this year with fondness and a bit of awe, knowing it was the year that locked everything into place, the year that transitioned me from my childhood working decade to the one that comes next – one that even through all this, I’m so excited for,"
Lorde concluded: “It’s just hard when you’re in it.”
