Christy Dignam has said he is still haunted by the sexual abuse he suffered when he was six years old – revealing his alleged assailant is still alive and living locally.
A few months ago, the 60-year-old recognised his alleged abuser among a group of people.
The Aslan singer, who is undergoing chemotherapy, revealed his mind has been travelling back to his childhood.
He told the Sunday Independent: “For that bloke who done that to me, that was just an orgasm to him.
“And that was just for one f*****g orgasm. I remember thinking when I was having the chemo, ‘Wow. That’s f******g weird’.”
He recalled: “He brought me into his gaff. He done what he done. When I came out, all my mates were asking me, ‘Where were you? We were looking for you.’
“I told them I was out in my back garden. I was lying to them.
“From that moment on, my life was different. From then on, I used to have that f*****g gaping hole in me. The first time I got rid of that as an adult was when I took heroin for the first time.”
He revealed he knew his alleged molester from Dublin’s Finglas area.
Christy said: “I knocked at the door. So, when I walked in, the house was in darkness.
“That’s one thing that really struck me. He had all the curtains closed. He got me into a chair and he took the laces out of my shoes.
“He stripped me off and he tied me to the chair.
“Because I kind of felt chosen, I felt special that he was choosing me and he wasn’t choosing one of the other kids from the road.
“That’s what freaked me out, because I wasn’t disgusted. I thought, ‘He thinks I’m great’.
“That’s what f****d me up later as an adult, because I didn’t feel horrified by the whole thing.”
Christy has had to have a lot of therapy to deal with his trauma.
He added: “Talking about it is good. It loses its power every time you talk about it.”
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