Susan Boyle says she's feeling better now after years of torment and mental health problems prompted by losing Britain's Got Talent in 2009.
The 58-year-old singer lost out to dance group Diversity 10 years ago, despite wowing audiences with her incredible talent, and the humiliation resulted in a public breakdown.
Susan, who was diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome in 2013, told Lorraine Kelly on her ITV show today that she's doing well now.
"You've said before that life before Britain's Got Talent was a bit dark, I know your mum had died and things were really hard, and it's almost like going from black and white to colour," Lorraine said.
"It's a bit like that. Somebody up there made me do it - I'd never have done it in the first place," Susan revealed.
"I feel a lot better now, thank you. I've had my moments when I've needed help, and I've reached out and got the help I needed, and I can only thank them for my recovery."
"You've got a good team round about you though, that's important," the host pointed out.
"I've got a brilliant team. I've got a great vocal coach, a great PA. My publicist, she's fantastic. I love them," Susan added.
The I Dreamed A Dream star also revealed she's a "single fish" and no longer fancies Piers Morgan because she's "grown up a bit".
It comes after Susan told how her mental health battle nearly led to her quitting BGT in the middle of the series.
"I was all set to quit the show. You've got a lot of pressure and a lot of different things going at once. It is difficult," she told Nine News this week.
Her autism diagnosis came as a huge relief to Susan, who for years believed she had "quite serious brain damage".
“[With] Asperger's you just have to make people aware that sometimes you have to go at a certain pace, don't be too bombarded with things. At the very beginning I was too bombarded," she added.
"It's nothing to be ashamed of. Everybody has something. I mean, a flaw, if you like. But you shouldn't be ashamed of it. It's something that you bring out in the open in the hope that you help other people. I like to feel I'm the voice for people who have been the underdog, and I wanted to try and prove myself."
*Lorraine airs weekdays from 8.30am on ITV
