Girls dance and cheer as Charlie Watkins descends the love lift on Take Me Out and bounds on stage – his disarming smile captured forever on the pre-recorded TV dating show.
His twin brother Harry sat in the audience, willing him on. He thought he knew Charlie 'like his right arm' but could not see the demons he was battling buried deep beneath his confident facade.
Just weeks before the show was broadcast, witty, handsome Charlie took his own life on March, 13, 2017. He was 22-years-old.
His devastated twin Harry, 24, established the Charlie Watkins Foundation after his only sibling's death to help young people suffering from mental illness.
Talking to the Mirror two years after his twin's death, Harry said: "I thought I knew what was going on in his head but I didn't see the demons he was battling.
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"Now I'd give the rest of my life just to have one more beer with him.
"To tell him I love him.
“Charlie loved every minute of Take Me Out.
"I watched it live in the studio. Before he came down the Love Lift my sibling rivalry made me hope that all the girls would turn off their lights but as soon as I saw him I was rooting for him.
"He was caught up in the moment as he came down the lift. You could tell he was a little bit nervous, but if he wasn't nervous there'd be something wrong.
"Everyone was cheering, all the girls were shouting and dancing and loads of lights were left on for him.
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"I think he won everyone over with his big grin."
But just weeks after filming the show Charlie tragically took his own life.
Harry remembers: "I saw him the day before his death. It was a Sunday afternoon, he came over to Leeds where I was in uni. We had drinks together and he was in really good form, outgoing and cracking jokes, all very quick-witted stuff.
"He had all my friends laughing and we were joking that he was the funnier brother.
"I never thought that what would happen in 24 hours could possibly happen.
"He left at about 5pm or 6pm to go to a Lacrosse dinner. I gave him a hug and said 'I love you. See you soon.'"
But that was the last time Harry saw his brother alive.
Charlie's housemates became anxious when there was no response from his bedroom the next day and a former SAS member who he lived with unpicked the lock to his door and found Charlie dead in his room.
Harry said: "His body was found on Monday evening in his bedroom. He hung himself.
"I found out the next day.
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"It felt like I had lost my right arm.
"It was only at the inquest that I discovered the issues Charlie had around his mental health.
"It was a hard process, hearing details about your 22-year-old brother's death that you didn't ever want to hear.
"About one year before his death, I saw cuts on his arm. When I asked him what they were he got very defensive. It took me a while to realise what they were, that he was self-harming. But he started going to counselling and I thought he had gotten a lot better.
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"When we were in uni I saw him about once every three or four weeks, whenever I saw him he was in great form, like he was the day before he died. But I wasn't with him 24 hours a day and it's hard to know how people are when they're alone at night.
"Depression fluctuates. Someone may not be 100% depressed all of the time but they can still be suffering."
Watching Charlie star in Take Me Out just three weeks after his death was an emotional experience for Harry.
He said: “ITV sent a lovely box with photos of Charlie from the show after his death.
“They asked if it was OK to broadcast the show and we thought that it would be a good way to raise awareness about mental health.
"Paddy McGuinness usually live tweets throughout the show but on the day it broadcast, he said that he wasn't going to tweet that night because this show was in memory of Charlie, who lost his life since filming.
"I watched it up at uni with loads of my friends. We were like little kids glued to the TV.
"It was surreal but nice to see Charlie laughing.
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"He was in his truest form, cracking jokes. It was about three weeks after his death. It was very hard to see him there but also lovely in a way.
"Being twins, we were always going to be close.
"Charlie was 10 minutes older than me. He was an all-round great guy. We did everything together, we went to the same school, We had the same interests, had the same friends.
“People said, 'surely you're not his twin brother, you look nothing alike. But it was nice to look different.
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"It was always just us two and dad. Our mum passed away from cancer when we were nine.
"When you're a twin you know when the other twin is annoyed or sad, but when we got older it became harder to tell.
"I always thought I knew what he was thinking but I obviously did not.
"Mental illness is not like a cut or a bruise or a break, it's invisible so it's hard to see that it's there.
"We set up the foundation to try to help other families. We don't want other people to have to feel our pain, or to feel Charlie's pain of mental distress.
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"And we didn't want Charlie to die in vain.
"I never knew before his death that suicide is the biggest killer of young men. A lot of people are struggling.
"We set up an online mental health service called Chat with Charlie which offers support for students between 6pm - 10pm when other support services have closed and before Nightline begins.
"We want to help dispel the stigma and the myth that it's' 'weak' to talk about mental health or feel depressed. Everyone deserves to be happy.
"Charlie would probably take his hat off to us if he could see the work we've done in his name.”
Visit the Charlie Watkins Foundation for more information or to donate to the charity.
If you have been affected by any of the issues raised in this article, contact the Samaritans on 116 123 or email jo@samaritans.org.
