The sons of Leeds United legend Gary Speed have spoken out for the first time since he tragically took his own life nine years ago.
The Daily Star reports Ed and Tommy Speed admitted to still being 'baffled' by the events that led to their dad's suicide, adding he had the 'perfect life'.
Gary Speed, who played alongside Gordon Strachan, Garry McAllister and David Batty in Leeds' title winning side of 1991-92, was found dead in his garage on November 27, 2011. He was just 42.
Speaking for the first time since the tragic incident, Tommy, 22, and Ed, 23, have opened up on dealing with losing their father at a young age.
Ed, who was just 14 at the time, said he remembers the day 'vividly' and recalled being woken by his mum screaming.
“She was outside and she had seen Dad through the window of the garage," he said.
“I ran downstairs and she was struggling to breathe and talk. You know, you don’t want to see your mum like that. No one does.
“She was just in shock. She told me not to look in the garage but...it still haunts me what I saw... Dad suffering like that.”
Tommy, who is now studying business management and playing football at Adelphi University in New York, recalled the moment his older brother broke the news to him.
He said: "They came into my bedroom and woke me up. Ed just said, 'Dad's gone' and we all hugged. Ed told us that we had to stay strong."
The 22-year-old added his dad was the "glue that held the family together" and loved to be around people.
"Dad had the perfect life," he said. "But something was going on, or something happened and, for whatever reason, he didn't look for help."
Ed said he often wonders if his dad would have been proud of what he has achieved since his passing.
"When I graduated with a degree in economics in the summer, I would have liked nothing more than my dad to call me and tell me how proud he was," he said.
"I know he would be. That's all he wanted for us. I'd love to know if he thinks we've done OK without him."
Tommy admitted to still asking questions about what led his dad to take his own life.
He said: "It feels mean to say I'm angry at him, but sometimes... yeah. But you can't look back and let that eat you up.
"I still ask questions. We both still ask questions. We'd be mad not to. He wasn't depressed. There was just something in his brain. I have always said I can't quite put my finger on it."
The brothers spoke to BBC host Dan Walker, who was one of the last people to see Gary alive.
Last month, he published his book Remarkable People: Extraordinary Stories of Everyday Lives - which goes over inspiring stories provided by people Dan has met throughout his career.
