Victoria Mary Clarke, who has been married to Shane MacGowan for three years, has said that she feels "guilty about not doing enough for Shane, not being superhuman."
In a very candid and heartfelt message, Clarke shared an insight into her love for the singer of The Pogues as she helps him stay on the straight and narrow after years of alcohol abuse.
These efforts intensified after the 63-year-old singer fell and injured his knee in February, which left him bedridden.
After previously breaking his pelvis a few years ago, MacGowan has had trouble walking and his wife Victoria Mary Clarke has given an insight into her level of care for him.
"A lot of the time I feel guilty about not doing enough for Shane, not being superhuman not having enough energy not being able to heal him or even always be sweet and kind to him," she wrote.
Clarke adds: "And sometimes his needs trigger resentment and anger in me and then I feel guilty about not being high vibrational and not being full of love and light and joy and positivity.
"It’s not easy to accept that I just am what I am and I am trying my best. I think that a lot of people can feel this way? Unable to find our own joy and radiance and energy because we are overwhelmed by the needs of the people we love."
Despite these recent setbacks, MacGowan can take some comfort in knowing that the recent documentary on his life - Crock of Gold: A Few Rounds with Shane MacGowan - has really resonated with fans and critics alike.
Despite the recent setbacks to his health, Clarke said that her husband is still "good-humoured" and isn't complaining about being in pain.
"The angels are inviting us now to get more compassionate with ourselves and more accepting of our feelings and more willing to do whatever we need to do to get back in touch with our own needs and find what lights us up and energises us and fills our cup until it is overflowing and abundant and we are not being eaten alive and drained by our relationships."
"He was literally getting from the chair to the bed and he fell, so you know he’s usually pretty good-humoured. Some days are better than others. He doesn't complain about being in pain, but it can't be hard."
