Prince Harry has bravely talked about being haunted by walking behind his mum Diana's coffin.
The Princess of Wales was killed in a car crash in 1997, tearing a huge hole in the UK and even more devastating, leaving behind her sons Harry and William.
All of the world was watching when Harry walked behind his mum's coffin with his brother, his dad Prince Charles and uncle Charles Spencer.
Now during his Apple TV documentary The Me You Can't See, Harry remembered the heartbreaking day when he walked through the streets of London.
It was an out-of-body experience where Prince Harry said he was just doing what was expected of him, not able to feel the full extent of his grief.
He said: "The thing I remember most was the sound of the horses' hooves going along the Mall.
"It was like I was outside of my body, just walking along, doing what was expected of me, showing one tenth of the emotion that everyone was showing."
Grieving Harry told of the terrible heartache when he lost his mum at the age of 12, just before his 13th birthday.
He said: “When my mum was taken away from me at the age of 12, just before my 13th birthday, I didn’t want the life.
“Sharing the grief of my mother’s death with the world…”
Strangers grieving for his mother's death was difficult for Harry to process.
He added: “I was like: ‘This is my mum. You never even met her.’”
His unresolved anxiety stemmed back to the age of 12 and the anger he felt over the death of his mother.
Only after a row with Meghan, Harry started serious therapy to "deal with his past" to make their relationship work.
It was the Duchess of Sussex who spurred him on to get professional help.
"I quickly established that if this relationship was going to work, I had to deal with my past," Harry told Oprah.
Harry featured taking part in an EMDR session which is a process therapy aimed at helping emotional distress by briefly focusing on a traumatic memory.
