A mother who has lost 27 children to miscarriage has spoken out about the heartbreak the losses have caused.
Mum Lisa had a smooth pregnancy with her first born in 2007 and assumed it would plain sailing in the future.
However, the trainee nursing associate endured two devastating miscarriages before being diagnosed with unexplained infertility.
Tests revealed Lisa, from Birmingham, West Midlands, had a high level of natural killer cells which meant her body was killing unborn embryos.
But medication has failed to put an end to the heartbreaking miscarriages.
Lisa, 33, said: "I never knew it was possible to have unexplained complications behind building a family.
"It is frustrating and heartbreaking to say the least.
"Losing a baby doesn't get easier but I have developed a thick skin.
"I am super fertile but I don't even smile or celebrate when I see two lines anymore.
"When the pains and miscarriage is happening, it literally feels like my heart is being ripped out. But the harsh reality is - once it has happened - I am able to carry on as if it hasn't."
Lisa describes her second miscarriage at ten weeks as the 'worst' as she was hospitalised due to loss of blood.
She said: "I was at a family meal and it happened when I went to the toilet. I remember the blood was gushing out.
"It was so traumatic. I couldn't believe I was losing another baby."
The NHS are unable to investigate miscarriages further until the woman has had three.
Lisa sought private medical care as she couldn't bare go through the pain again.
But the tests came back normal meaning there was no remedy to put an end to the heartbreak.
Lisa felt 'confident' that it won't happen again.
She said: "Being diagnosed with unexplained fertility makes it harder to accept.
"After three miscarriages, I stopped telling friends and family that I was pregnant. As I have been almost waiting for it to happen again.
"I've seen strong heartbeats which have given me hope that it won't happen again. I often wonder why is this happening to me.
"At times it feels unfair.
"I am grateful for my daughter, 13, who I do not wish to be named, but don't understand how or why I cannot carry another one.
"I am desperate to have that overwhelming feeling of love that you get when you have a newborn."
The average woman has 5% natural killer cells but Lisa had 11%.
She prayed the medication to reduce them would work.
Doctors were baffled when the cells reduced to 2% but the recurring miscarriages continued. In May 2019, Lisa was told the only way she will have a biological child would be through surrogacy.
She said: "I didn't even have to ask my sister Joana, 31, as she has offered lots of times. I can't even compose how grateful and thankful I am for her to go ahead with it.
"We did one round of IVF in October but it failed. I was sure it was going to work as the embryos were healthy and Joana, is a mum of two.
"That loss hurt more than the rest as I thought surrogacy was going to be the answer. Thankfully, my sister is willing to try again.
"She said she will do whatever it takes to help me."
Lisa hopes her story can break the taboo and encourage women to speak out about miscarriages.
She said: "I don't think it is spoken about enough. I want others to know they are not alone and miscarriages do happen without a medical explanation."
