Megan Barton-Hanson has revealed she was once so depressed she thought about ending her life.
In a harrowing and honest interview, the Love Island star spoke of a dark time in her life following a break up.
Megan has admitted that following the breakdown of a relationship two years ago, she told her mum she was having suicidal thoughts.
The 25-year-old said she felt like she "wanted to give up".
Speaking to Heat in support of the Where’s Your Head At? campaign, she said she inititally struggled to open up about her mental health.
She said: "I found it so difficult to open up because I just thought, 'Am I crazy? Am I mental?’... I hate saying that because I think that’s where all the stigma comes from."
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She added: "I just felt like I wanted to give up, like there wasn’t any positive times, there wasn’t any sad times, I just felt a whole cloud over me of just like numbness and nothingness.
"I remember crying to my mum and saying basically, 'I really am not happy, I don’t wanna be here anymore'.”
Megan went on to say that those who have a platform need to speak out about mental health in a bid to erase the taboo nature of the subject.
She said: "Everyone with a big platform needs to speak out about it because everyone suffers on some level. So, it shouldn’t be taboo and more people need to realise that it's okay to feel, like, down or anxious.
"I think we’re slowly getting better with mental health in the UK. We’re speaking about it more openly but it’s still something we need to talk about more."
Megan, who split from boyfriend Wes Nelson following their stint together on Love Island, also admitted she struggled to get back to a "normal life" after leaving the villa.
"When I first came out the villa it was so difficult," she said. "I was on such a high but then I read some comments on a news article about me - they were absolutely awful."
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She's tried a number of techniques to learn how to cope with her mental health.
She said: "I thought there was no way I could get better - but there always is, and I did get better… for me, therapy, meditation and yoga really help."
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