Author Marian Keyes has said she mourned for alcohol at the end of her addiction, admitting: “It was like saying goodbye to the love of my life.”
The bestselling novelist, who has been open about her battle with alcoholism in her 20s, also reflected on how a suicide attempt ultimately forced her to confront her problem.
Speaking on Angela Scanlon’s Thanks A Million podcast, Keyes, 56, said: “What killed me at the time was when I reached the end of my alcoholic drinking and realised that I had to stop.
“And I was 30 and felt like simultaneously more ancient than the planet and also like ridiculously young.
“And I honestly felt that my life was completely destroyed and the next whatever number of years that I lived would be just like crawling through a desert trying not to drink.
“And because everything I did back then kind of centred around alcohol, you know, when I could next drink and when I could get the money to buy it, and you know, how could I get away with that?
“I look back and it’s 26 years since I’ve had a drink and my life has just been so beautiful since.
“I would never have known that I could feel
so happy about not drinking.”
