A former minister has said Liz Truss laughed at him as she sacked him - saying it was a "gut punch" that sent him into depression.
Johnny Mercer, who served as veterans minister under Boris Johnson, said Ms Truss has lost authority over the Tory Party as calls mount for her to step aside.
Mr Mercer said in an interview for Men's Health Talking Heads series by Alastair Campbell: "When this happened it was such a gut punch. I remember Liz kind of laughing while she did it.
"She was giggling and looking at the floor and I was just thinking 'I am a mug for believing these guys', and it sucked the air out of me.
"I was thinking, 'I've given seven years of my life to this, put my family through the mill for it, and you are laughing at me.'
"I tried to shake it off, went home, got p***ed, all those things you shouldn't do, but the thing about depression is it creeps over the back of your head."
He said the PM broke a promise she made during her leadership campaign not to downgrade veterans' affairs if she got the top job.
As soon as Ms Truss took office on September 6, she removed him from his post and folded his responsibility for veteran care into James Heappey's role as defence minister.
Mr Mercer, a former British Army officer whose military career included several tours of Afghanistan, said that while he felt he had made progress for ex-service people - but Ms Truss's move made him doubt his time in politics.
"It's gone at a stroke and it does make you think 'why did I bother with this thing?'," he said.
Mr Mercer said he no longer identified with the Tory party after the change in direction under Ms Truss.
"The truth is that the Conservative party is no longer a Conservative party," he said.
"It is a libertarian party. That's fine if you're a libertarian but I am not. I'm a life chances Tory. I want to give opportunity to the kids here who haven't had it."
Asked if the Prime Minister could get him back, Mr Mercer told said: "Well, she has changed her views a lot over the years. There is an extraordinary arrogance here. You come in and within 28 days, you've gifted a 33-point lead to the Opposition.
"It's hard to get people to do what you want them to with that on your record. Almost impossible."
Mr Mercer also conceded that if he was asked whether a Labour government under Sir Keir Starmer or a Tory government under Ms Truss was better for the country, he would find it very difficult to answer.
When he was sacked in September, Mr Mercer said he was "disappointed" but accepted the PM was "entitled to reward her supporters".
His wife Felicity Cornelius-Mercer went further, calling Ms Truss an "imbecile" and posting a picture mocking the Prime Minister as a character from The Muppets television show.
Ms Cornelius-Mercer angrily tweeted that the Cabinet system "stinks" and "treats people appallingly" after her husband was removed as veterans' affairs minister.
