Actor Stephen Graham has recalled the traumatic moment he tried to take his own life after suffering a breakdown.
The This is England and Line of Duty star said he 'thought he'd gone' when he made the attempt to end his life in his early 20s.
Stephen, who was speaking on Radio Four's Desert Island Discs, did find a glimmer of hope following his despair as shortly after his future wife came into his life and he said it was "worth living".
Detailing the horrific moment of his suicide bid, the 46-year-old said that moving to London from Kirkby where he grew up was a trigger.
"I had a breakdown. Going to that big London to do it on your own," the actor said,
"Then I went back home. They (his parents) were trying to see what was happening with me.
"I'll never forget the tears coming down both their faces.
"Then the next day I tried to hang myself. It was very calculated.
"I kicked the chair and I heard my Nana's voice. She shouted 'Stephen' and I thought I'd gone. I just came to, opened my eyes and the rope had snapped. Thankfully.
"I had to put on a high neck jumper. My mum kind of saw it. Then everything came out. Life was worth living thankfully."
An emotional Stephen said his family and friends rallied round to help him and he also credited his actress wife Hannah Walters.
After years of "just talking", Hannah's impending move to Spain forced Stephen into taking action.
"We were waiting at New Cross train station and I said to her 'please don't go to Spain. I love you," he recalled.
"She went 'I've been waiting for five years for you to say that'. The next day we moved in together."
Stephen has previously spoken about how Hannah reads his scripts and choose his roles due to his dyslexia.
He said: "My missus actually reads the script and says whether or not I'm doing it.
"She's made some good choices.
"I have to read it and read it and read it, then make it look like it's the first time I'm saying it."
The full interview with Graham can be heard on Desert Island Discs on BBC Sounds.
