Kerry Katona has admitted she felt "embarrassed" and "uncomfortable" as she headed to a wedding dress shop to try on gowns ahead of her big day.
The former Atomic Kitten star, 40, is preparing to tie the knot with personal trainer Ryan Mahoney, 32, and it'll be her fourth trip down the aisle.
Kerry has now opened up about her wedding preparations and admitted she's been battling some old insecurities when it should be the happiest time of her life.
The star - who has gone through three failed marriages - told Mail Online : "I just felt really embarrassed about being in a wedding shop, I felt very uncomfortable.
"Like I didn't deserve to be happy, like I've been through this before, like I wasn't entitled to get excited about it."
However, the singer insisted the process of wedding dress shopping actually really helped her and she came home with the perfect gown.
She's yet to start any more preparations for the big day and has previously suggested the couple might hop on a plane and tie the knot in Las Vegas.
Kerry insisted she doesn't want to do the big white wedding all over again, adding: "I've been married that many times and you're just paying for dinner for everybody else!"
Mum-of-five Kerry was married to singer Brian McFadden from 2002 to 2006, taxi driver Mark Croft from 2007 to 2011 and George Kay from 2014 to 2017.
Kerry recently admitted that she is suffering from post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) due to her three failed marriages.
She told the Daily Star: "I've definitely got post-traumatic stress from my marriages.
"Especially from my last marriage – we never got divorced me and George – I couldn't think of anything worse than getting married again."
However, she said meeting Ryan changed her opinion on tying the knot for a fourth time.
Kerry also admitted she didn't expect to have five children with three different dads, but her past relationships have put her where she is now.
She shares daughters Molly, 19, and Lilly-Sue, 18, with McFadden, daughter Heidi, 14, and son Max, 13, with Croft, and daughter Dylan-Jorge, seven, with her late ex-husband Kay.
"[Ryan's] completely changed everything," Kerry said. "We're all entitled to be happy and we all deserve to be loved no matter what.
"Everyone deserves a happy ever after. But it's taken me a long time to realise that."
Kerry went on: "It's not like when I was 15 I was like, 'When I grow up I'm going to get married four times and have five children with different surnames and three different dads – I can't wait.'
"But I wouldn't be on the path I'm on without those marriages."
