Kate Garraway has been through hell over the last 20 months - and is praying for a 'miracle'.
The Good Morning Britain presenter's husband, Derek Draper, spent a year in hospital fighting for his life after his organs were ravaged by coronavirus and has been struggling to walk and talk.
For the first time since Derek contracted Covid in March last year, Kate got a whole day to herself and takes an emotional journey through the countryside in BBC's Walking With.
While walking along the edge of the stunning Cotswolds Hills, the presenter tries to clear her mind but is given constant reminders of the distressing situation her family finds themselves in.
But there is also a lot of hope for Kate, who says it's much easier to create space in her head and "hang on to hope of a miracle" while soaking up the sounds of nature.
In one poignant moment, Kate ventures inside a church after being drawn in by the sound of the bells - and is soon left in tears.
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"I haven’t been to church since Derek got sick," explains Kate. "We used to go regularly. Derek is a faithful churchgoer.
"But we haven't been inside one. And it does feel like there's an incredible sense of peace. It makes me feel quite emotional actually."
While inside Saint Mary's Church in Great Witcombe, tearful Kate bows her head in a moment of silence, then says there is something powerful in prayer whatever form it takes.
She adds: "You can probably guess what I’m praying for. It's a very special thing."
Kate relishes the chance to have nothing to do but take in the "joy and rhythm of the countryside" as she crosses the gentle, rolling hills with just a 360-degree camera for company.
From the panoramic viewpoint of Painswick Beacon, Kate descends through beech woods to the village of Upton St Leonards before climbing Cooper's Hill - the places she used to come out with her family and her first patch as a reporter.
Even the sight of a weirdly shaped tree curving up towards the sun reminds her of the struggles her family face.
Finding comfort in the movement of the branches, Kate admits she feels "strangely safe" while relaxing on the tree trunk.
says: "When I still do feel the crisis of worry about what Derek's future is and therefore what our future is since he contracted Covid, I find just focusing on one thing helps you to calm your mind down.
"A chance to stop and let life come to me for a change. Wonderful."
Derek has been at home for the last few months and it was only recently that Kate decided it was time to clear out his office.
Further along the way, Kate spies an oak tree and sees it as a metaphor for the strength she needs to have.
"We look at their strength but we often forget about their adaptability. Whatever comes their way it feels like they don't give up even when your roots have been shaken to the core you can still holdout and burst out life in every direction and keep going.
"The life force is there. If I could be a little bit like you it would be good," she adds, before joking she hopes the tree won't fall down in the night."
Along the way she meets local craftspeople who are inspired by the "living theatre" of the landscapes, walks nervously past some cows, meets a farmer and walks through some long grass.
Kate finds her natural surroundings a source of inspiration and resilience as she reflects on a year of challenges and change.
"Maybe one of the strange things about Covid is that we’ve all had different mental health challenges," she explains.
"Some have had there’s exacerbated by this period. Some people have had perhaps direct impact of Covid like myself on somebody they care for.
"The strange thing is it's been a time of huge fear where we suddenly thought what is going on our world has changed forever. But the funny thing about that is that is life anyway. You don't know what's around the corner."
The GMB host also discusses how she has discovered suddenly from nowhere that a community has been there for her all along.
A neighbour on her street, who she didn't know before, brought her a cake when Derek first got ill and has continued to do so every Saturday.
Kate says she love being out in countryside as it feels stable and solid but ever-changing, just like our normal lives.
"Sometimes our human lives don’t feel like a rhythm at all. They feel like you’re jolted out of control.
"And you don't want to get fooled into thinking this is a picture postcard life without imperfection because of course it isn’t. It isn’t a postcard, it's living theatre."
On the final stretch of her journey, Kate sit down on the grass on her own and makes a powerful point about being alone.
"We tend to think of being on your own as being lonely. And I’ve had great moments of loneliness and fear over the last year and a half or so.
"And in that situation it's hard because the person I wanted to give me a hug can’t and that's Derek.
"There’s something about coming here and reminding yourself you can feel the countryside wrapping your arms around you and giving love back."
*Walking With...Kate Garraway airs tonight on BBC Two at 7pm
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