Giants kicker Josh Brown, who was suspended for the regular-season opener for violating the NFL's domestic violence policy, allegedly admitted in his own journal entries to physically and emotionally abusing his wife before being arrested in May, 2015 and charged with fourth-degree domestic violence assault, according to documents obtained by NJ.com and SNY.TV.
The journals, as well as emails, were turned over to police by the kicker's former wife, Molly Brown, after Josh was arrested. The arrest led to Brown's suspension, although the NFL said it was hampered in its investigation because Molly was unwilling to talk to league officials looking into the arrest. The NFL cited her unwillingness to cooperate as the biggest reason for not suspending Brown more than one game.
"I have physically, mentally, emotionally and verbally been a repulsive man," Brown allegedly wrote in one of his journal entries, according to SNY.TV. "I have abused my wife."
In a letter he allegedly wrote to friends in March 2014, Brown said his issues with women date to when he was "molested as a young boy [around 6]," according to the report. "I have been a liar for most of my life. I made selfish decisions to use and abuse women starting at the age of 7 to fill this void. I objectified women and never really worried about the pain and hurt I caused them. My ability to connect emotionally to other people was zero. My empathy levels were zero.
"Because I never handled these underlying issues I became an abuser and hurt Molly physically, emotionally and verbally. I viewed myself as God basically and she was my slave."
NJ Advance Media reported that a King County (Washington) Sheriff Dept. detective recommended on Sept. 14, 2016 that two charges of fourth-degree domestic violence be brought against Brown, in connection with the original arrest in 2015. It is uncertain whether those charges will be pursued, according to the report.
The Giants did not comment on the reports.
Giants president and co-owner John Mara said in August that the team was aware of Brown's arrest when Brown was re-signed in April, 2016.
"We were also aware of the allegations associated with that arrest, and the fact the charges were dropped within a couple of days after the arrest," Mara said. "Based on the facts and circumstances that we were aware of at that time, we were comfortable with our decision to re-sign him. Nothing that has happened in the mean time to make us question that decision. ... We attempted to make an informed decision here. We'll live with the results of that decision."
The Giants are scheduled to practice at their training center in East Rutherford, N.J., Thursday and then fly to England, where they will face the Rams on Sunday at Twickenham in southwest London.
