I had a two-year affair with a married man who was in an unhappy marriage. I loved him deeply and told him that I was not prepared to share him. For two years he made excuses – I’m only there for the kids, my wife would be shattered, etc. Then we were discovered and his marriage ended. A few months later he finished with me, saying he had not anticipated how hard coping with the aftermath was going to be. He said he loved me, but had to put an end to us.
I went into a downward spiral; I ended up taking an overdose. Nearly a year later, I still feel terribly depressed. Not having him in my life is unbearable. I have written to him several times asking if he could write back, explaining why he did what he did, which would help me come to terms with things. He won’t respond, even though he knows the state I am in. I feel that he has a duty to give me the answers I need to help me heal. Am I wrong to insist on this?
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