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Sophie Halle-Richards

'I feel guilty saying it, but it feels nice': The unexpected benefits of lockdown life for a woman with OCD

Mental health charities in Greater Manchester have reported unprecedented numbers of calls from people in need of help, since the country went into lockdown over six weeks ago.

Anxiety around health, finances and isolation can all have an impact.

But everyone is different.

And some people are finding that the slowing down in the pace of life is bringing unexpected relief.

Among them is a woman with obsessive compulsive disorder who the M.E.N. spoke to.

Before lockdown, it could take Kim up to an hour to gather the courage to leave her house in the morning.

The 33-year-old from Rochdale was diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD), depression, and anxiety, five years ago.

Leaving the house for her job at a call centre in Manchester, meant a painful ritual of checking plug sockets, and locking doors - several times over.

Some days, Kim could stand at her front door for over half an hour to make sure it was locked.

Her obsessive thoughts sent her into a spiral of crippling depression and anxiety, meaning some days, she didn't want to leave the house at all.

But since the start of lockdown, and working from home - Kim has seen a surprising improvement in her mental health.

She says it's the best she has felt in over five years.

It is important to remember that the coronavirus pandemic has caused a deterioration in some people's mental health.

Many people have experienced grief, anxiety, isolation and loneliness.

Some days, Kim could stand at her front door for over half an hour to make sure it was locked (PA)

But for someone like Kim, whose life has been tormented by intrusive thoughts for half a decade - lockdown has come as a source of relief.

"I have OCD, depression and anxiety, so naturally I thought that lockdown would cause me to feel more anxious," Kim said.

"Instead I feel better and it's actually quite nice - I am enjoying lockdown so far."

Kim was diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder five years ago, when she realised her constant obsessive thoughts were unhealthy.

"It got the point where I would struggle to even my house, and it was really bad for a long time," Kim said.

"It made me depressed and anxious because I didn't know what it was.

"In the past, I would have to psych myself up just to get on the tram.

"I live in Rochdale and work in Manchester and if the tram was really busy I got so anxious - I had to be in a good place mentally to be able to get on.

"When I left the house, I had to do several rounds of checking of plug sockets, door locks, that kind of thing.

"I could spend half an hour at my front door to make sure it was locked even though I knew I had just locked it and could see I had missed two trams for work."

After a couple of days working from home Kim noticed she was sleeping through the night (Dominic Lipinski/PA Wire)

Kim started working from home around a week before the UK government announced strict restrictions on people's movement.

After a couple of days, Kim noticed she was sleeping through the night - something she hadn't been able to do for years.

"It has blown my mind that lockdown has made me less anxious," Kim said.

"My OCD is still there and will always be there but the depression is a lot better and the anxiety has disappeared.

"I still get a bit anxious if I have to go out to the supermarket but other than that I am feeling okay.

"I feel like a new person."

"It may be because I don't have a choice about going out," Kim added.

"If the choice is taken away from you and you are told you have to stay at home and work from home, then I don't have to worry about the normal everyday insecurities."

Kim says that lockdown has meant her employers are considering allowing people to work from home more often in the future.

"For me, this feels really positive," Kim said.

"I am happy to work from home as much as possible if it makes me feel better.

"I feel guilty saying it but it feels nice - this is the best I have felt in a very long time.

"I am getting back to the person I was before all this."

Kim says lockdown has left her feeling like a "new person" (ABNM Photography)

Dr Elena Touroni is a consultant psychologist and co-founder of My Online Therapy, a website which provides on-the-spot access to first class psychologists.

She explains that it is perfectly natural for people with mental health conditions to react in different ways during times of crisis.

"How people are reacting is heavily dependent on multiple factors, such as: individual personality traits, life circumstances and also the coping strategies a person uses to regulate their mood," Dr Touroni said.

"People who are naturally extroverted and feed off a lot of connection are likely to find this time especially challenging.

"There will be all kinds of ways they use to regulate their mood that fill them with energy and positivity which they no longer have access to.

"On the other hand, those who are more introverted might be feeling a sense of relief with this moment providing respite from the stresses and anxieties of day-to-day life.

"I have a number of clients who normally live a very pressurised life with long hours and lots of travelling.

"Some of them have enjoyed the sense of stillness lockdown has brought them, allowing for more time spent with their family etc.

"And then there are those who are finding the restrictions incredibly difficult but are also finding a new sense of gratitude and appreciation for the life they had.

"Lockdown is impacting us all in different ways."

Meanwhile, Kim says she is chatting to her friends and family over the phone more than she ever used to.

"In the past I would always be too stuck inside my own head to chat to them," she said.

"I am speaking to my grandparents as they are isolating and in a way it's nice for me to worry about them rather than them worry about me for once.

"My best advice for people with OCD is finding a routine.

"It can be really easy in lockdown to fall out of a routine and go to sleep really late but once I found my routine I felt so much better.

"Whatever you are feeling now, this will pass."

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