Halsey has given a distressing account of suffering a miscarriage hours before performing on stage in front of thousands.
In the frank interview with Rolling Stone magazine, the New Jersey-born singer, 21, described how being in the music industry was at times all consuming. This was evident in her decision to perform at a concert in Chicago during her Badlands tour in 2015 after going through a miscarriage.
Halsey had only found out she was pregnant hours before.
”What happens?" she said of her thought process. "Do I lose my record deal? Do I lose everything? Or do I keep [the pregnancy]? What are the fans going to think? What are the moms going to think? What is the Midwest going to think? What's f**king everyone going to think?”
“I'm like, 'I have to cancel this show!' And everyone's kind of like, 'Well, it's Vevo LIFT, and it's 3 million impressions, so ...' No one knew what to do.”
Halsey then asked her assistants to buy her disposable underwear and painkillers before performing.
She said the decision to go on stage was her choice, but not one she can explain.
“That was the moment of my life where I thought to myself, 'I don't feel like a fucking human being anymore.' This thing, this music, Halsey, whatever it is that I'm doing, took precedence and priority over every decision that I made regarding this entire situation from the moment I found out until the moment it went wrong. I walked offstage and went into the parking lot and just started throwing up.”
