Singing sensation Ellie Goulding has opened up about struggling with 'crippling anxiety' in a candid Instagram post where she revealed that she isn't doing 'very good' after a tough year.
Taking to Instagram to wish her fans a happy 2022, Ellie, 35, opened up about a 'difficult' 2021 despite it being 'the very best year' of her life.
2021 saw Ellie welcome her first son Arthur, who is now eight months old, with her husband Caspar Jopling.
Posting a photo of herself on the photo sharing app, Ellie also posted a few slides of text where she addressed her mental health and wellbeing. In the caption, she asked fans to read the black slides with white text.
She started: "Happy New Year everyone... This past year has been the very best of my life. I became a mother, the greatest joy I've known."
Ellie then went on to detail how she got to make 'exciting new music', release a book, and perform for the Duke and Duchess of Cambridge.
She detailed her gratitude for her dog and cat that love her, her friends that 'really' love her and her husband that adores and supports her 'every single day'.
"But this year has also been the hardest of my life," she revealed candidly.
"I've struggled daily, nightly, hourly with a kind of panic I didn't even know existed.
"While the moments of being on stage in front of all of you have been some of the most exhilarating and calming, this year I have been struggling."
She then went on to say: "If I was to really think about it, my anxiety has dictated quite a lot of my life and career, and I feel sad about that," before explaining how all of that has made her who she is.
She wrote: "Sometimes at my most terrified, when I feel there is no escape from the sheer panic and dread in my heart and brain, I remind myself that I can feel.
"I feel so much and that is how I have got to this place in my life. I want to tell you this on the last day of this year because so many of you have been asking how I'm doing and often do not get a reply.
"It's because I've been too scared to admit that the answer is, not very good. I feel like something is broken inside - something that has been echoed deeply by the few I have opened up to.
"This is something so so many people have gone through, you may be going through right now, or might go through in the future - and I just wanted to say, and I have to remind myself all the time, that it's not just you, it's not just me. Crippled by anxiety.
"I know so many of you reading this feel this same pain and at the same time so many of you won't have experienced it, but will most likely know someone who has struggled."
Speaking directly to her fans, she penned: "For those that are in this right now, we're together and we can get through this – most importantly by talking.
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"Talking and opening up is the hardest, and best thing you can do," she urged.
She concluded: "Life is a precious thing and seeing Arthur grow every day gives me so much hope. I have so much love and energy for anyone going though this.
"Let's get though this together. 2022 is going to be a bright year. Positive energy. Together."
Fans and friends were quick to comment on Ellie's post, with many wishing her well, leaving sweet heart emojis and praising her for being so honest.
One person said: " Love you Ellie I can empathise with you and am so sorry you are feeling like this. It can be truly awful on the “inside” but look wonderful on the outside so many would not see your suffering. Thank you for sharing. Be kind to yourself you are doing your best."
While another sweetly penned: "I love you so so so much Ellie, you deserve everything good, thank you so much for everything you do for us like posts like this, I’m so glad you opened up because people sometimes tend to think famous people lives are always easy, you’re the most amazing human being."
Kudos to Ellie for being so candid.
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