Coleen Nolan has admitted she thought her predator dad didn't love her after he abused her sister Anne and not her.
Loose Women star Coleen, 53, made the revelation during a searingly honest account of her childhood on Piers Morgan's Life Stories, which aired on ITV on Thursday night.
During her chat with Morgan, Coleen opened up about how her family suffered at the hands of her late father Tommy, who died in 1998.
She revealed how her sister Anne had kept the abuse by her father a closely-guarded secret before finally sharing the news with her family after he passed away.
Coleen said hearing the truth about her dad caused her conflicting emotions.
"I cried because there was an element of did he not love me because he hadn’t… I thought he must have loved Anne more and I felt revolted by myself," she told Mogan.
Coleen, who is the youngest of eight children, told how she had mostly 'lovely memories' of her childhood and growing up in the Nolans band but was terrified of her dad Tommy.
The Loose Women star, 56, said the family used to dread Tommy returning home from the pub on a Saturday and being violent towards her late mother Maureen.
It wasn't until Coleen was in her mid-20s that she discovered her father had abused sister Anne, who bravely spoke out after Tommy's death.
Recalling memories of her dad on Loose Women last year, Coleen said: "He never drank during the day. When he went out, and certainly to the clubs, he used to drink brandy.
"I loved him until he’d had too much to drink and then I found him scary. He was quite argumentative when he was drunk.
"On a Saturday I used to have that dread of he'll be home soon looking for an argument with my mum. My mum was a fiery Irishwoman but I was like don't answer him back.
"I do have a bit of a drink phobia. As soon as their personality starts to change I go 'I’ve got to go'. I go bake to being that four or five-year-old."
Coleen said that her sister Anne, who is the oldest of the Nolan sisters, never confronted Tommy when he was alive.
"I think that was to protect his family, my mother who was still alive at the time and for people who didn't know.
"But I think for me, I think there was so much anger when he died, i think there was more anger when he died than when he was alive because she had never confronted him.
"So when he died, she felt like he'd got away with it."
Coleen added: "So I think she should have gone, even when he was ill, and said, 'I'll always remember what you did and I'll never forgive you'."
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