Christine McGuinness broke down today as her mum battled cancer in hospital.
Christine moved into her new home with Top Gear host Paddy McGuiness and their children today, but she said she felt "all over the place" and just wanted her mum there.
Former Miss Liverpool Christine is very close to her mum and has been unable to see her during the lockdown because she is shielding due to her breast cancer.
Today mum-of-three Christine cried on her Instagram stories as she tried to explain her conflicted emotions.
Christine, 32, said: "I feel like I'm all over the place today, I feel like I should be so happy we're moving house and this is literally our dream home that we've been building for years.
"I'd give it all to have my mum here, I feel like I've got no one to talk to and I feel like I'm all over the place.
"Everyone is unpacking boxes but my head is just not there because my mum should be there with me and she's still in hospital.
"I haven't seen her for months, I probably can't see her until next summer, the kids keep saying 'I wonder if nanny will come and stay'."
Christine continued to sob and apologised to her followers for getting upset but said she was really struggling.
Christine continued : "I just want my mum, I want to show mum the house - she hasn't seen it.
"Cancer is just horrible and covid, it should be the happiest day ever and I don't want to seem ungrateful because I'm from a council estate and it is quite overwhelming moving into this house.
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"I feel so so lucky, but I'd give it all to have my mum."
Christine finished her story and later posted a quote to Instagram saying: "It will all be ok."
And her followers rushed to offer their support in the comments, with many of them simply commenting a love heart emoji.
Debbie Baldwin said: "Keep going lovely one."
Cledwynmorris said: "Yes, positive thinking is first step."
And nicolafeaheny said: "It will exciting times. Best wishes in your new home."
