Chrissy Teigen has opened up about her relationship with her body and how it struggled to adapt following her pregnancy loss last year.
The TV personality and husband John Legend were expecting their third child in 2020, a baby boy they’d named Jack.
Sadly, Chrissy started suffering bleeding shortly after the pair made their announcement, and in October she shared intimate photos on Instagram, to tell followers that sadly Jack had not survived the birth.
Now, nearly one year on, Chrissy has shared a photo of herself sitting in her walk-in wardrobe, discussing how her body feels as a result of the pregnancy.
”It’s really weird when you lose a baby and your body gets paused in time," she wrote alongside the picture.
"Usually you’d gain your 'yumyums I’m praaaagnant!' weight, then put on the weight of your little bebe.
“Then, ideally, you’d have your baby. And you would feed it from your boobs and your body would know to charge through and do what it does to get you back into fighting shape, whatever that may be, for however long it takes (F**K a snap-back).”
“But man. When you lose a baby halfway through, your body just pauses,” she said. “It has nothing to do. No one to feed. And you’re just…stuck. Stuck with saggy boobs that were prepping to be milk bags, a belly that was ready to bake.
“I would be lying if I said this did not majorly suck. Not only are you ummmm extremely, diabolically sad at what could have been, but you have this daily reminder every time you look in the goddamn mirror.”
“I don’t really have a big ending or positive words lol. And don’t say nice things!! I know I know I promise,” Chrissy concluded.
“I know it’s not everything and I know i’m suuuuuch a badass and blah blah blah I just thought I’d be emo for a minute ok! I love you. f**k a scale!”
The couple announced they were expecting their third child in August 2020, with Jack joining daughter Luna, five, and son Miles, three.
However, the baby died at just past the 25 weeks mark, with the loss being considered a stillbirth rather than a miscarriage because of the late-term death.
Since then Chrissy has been in grief counselling, and has shared several personal essays discussing her feelings around losing her baby.
*If you have been affected by this story, advice and support can be found at Sands (stillbirth and neonatal death charity). You can call them on 0808 164 3332 or email helpline@sands.org.uk
