Caroline Flack's family have released a heartbreaking and unpublished Instagram post which she wrote before her death.
The presenter was found dead on Saturday (February 15) at her flat in north East London.
The unseen Instagram post was shared by her family with their local newspaper, the Eastern Daily Press, ahead of her inquest today (February 19), the Mirror has reported.
In the message, the former Love Island host opened up about her mental health issues and said she had been "brushing things under the carpet". She also apologised to her family and friends and took responsibility for "the accident" that resulted in her being charged with assault by beating on Lewis Burton, her boyfriend.
She wrote: "For a lot of people, being arrested for common assault is an extreme way to have some sort of spiritual awakening but for me it's become the normal.
"I've been pressing the snooze button on many stresses in my life - for my whole life.
"I've accepted shame and toxic opinions on my life for over 10 years and yet told myself it's all part of my job. No complaining.
"The problem with brushing things under the carpet is .... they are still there and one day someone is going to lift that carpet up and all you are going to feel is shame and embarrassment."
She continued: "On December the 12th 2019 I was arrested for common assault on my boyfriend ...
"Within 24 hours my whole world and future was swept from under my feet and all the walls that I had taken so long to build around me, collapsed.
"I am suddenly on a different kind of stage and everyone is watching it happen.
"I have always taken responsibility for what happened that night. Even on the night. But the truth is .... It was an accident.
"I've been having some sort of emotional breakdown for a very long time.
"The reason I am talking today is because my family can't take anymore.
"I've lost my job. My home. My ability to speak. And the truth has been taken out of my hands and used as entertainment.
"I can't spend every day hidden away being told not to say or speak to anyone.
"I'm so sorry to my family for what I have brought upon them and for what my friends have had to go through.
"I'm not thinking about 'how I'm going to get my career back.' I'm thinking about how I'm going to get mine and my family's life back.
"I can't say anymore than that."
Caroline's advisers ultimately told her not to post the message but her family have since released it through the Eastern Daily Press.
