Caroline Flack's former fiance Andrew Brady has released a lengthy statement following the Love Island star's funeral.
Andrew was engaged to Caroline in 2018 and has struggled to cope with his grief following her death.
Today he shared how he was feeling with his followers, alongside a poem he had written about their relationship.
He also shared a cosy snap of him and Caroline with her beloved dog Ruby in happier times.
He said: "Caroline sadly died almost a month ago. She's finally been laid to rest and I still haven't come to terms with things.
"It's been the single most devastating news I have ever heard and it shook me to the absolute core.
"I feel so much sorrow and pain and of course I still feel guilt. Our relationship wasn't easy and we had our troubles. I didn't always want good for her but I didn't want this. She didn't deserve this.
"I know some of you dislike me and that's okay. You read about our relationship and you judged. Go ahead make those judgements because you know nothing. I'm not writing this to amend any gossip you think you know.
"But I want this to be known. Regardless of how our relationship went, I want it to be known how much of an amazing person Caroline Flack was.
"Caroline had so many amazing qualities. She was sexy, she was passionate, she was flirty, she was talented, she was generous, she had a presence that you could feel her in a room, she had an incredible smile, she was the life and soul of the party and always threw a good one too.
"She loved karaoke and would hog the microphone as she was a performer.
"But most of all she loved all her nieces and nephews and she was a wonderful auntie.
"She loved all her family and just wanted to make them proud.
"I feel so sad for you all, I'm so sorry, I hope you were all able to celebrate her life yesterday just like she'd have wanted."
Andrew then shared a gushy poem that he had written for Caroline at the start of their relationship.
He continued: "For a time in my life I loved Caroline. No matter what any of you might think of me or Caroline from what you've read.
"We had a whirlwind of a relationship that was incredibly passionate and a lot of love, we grew really close.
"It didn't work out but that doesn't change the impact on my life she made.
"I have my memories and I will cherish them.
"Caroline had a lot of people she loved in her life and a lot of people loved her, I hope they're being allowed to grieve in private.
"Please try and learn from this and realise the price of someone's privacy isn't worth their life.
"I'm not sure what I'm doing is right but I don't know how to grieve, we never get taught these things.
"I just hope that we can all use this as a lesson, let's just be kind, it's not that difficult.
"Maybe think about the implications of that nasty comment you're about to send.
"If you reading this are feeling down about anything please just speak to somebody.
"It's amazing how many good people out there care about you, it's ok not to be okay!
"Also no body worry about me. I'm okay. I am surrounded by amazing people here. This is just really sad and tragic news."
