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Sophie Halle-Richards

Cancelled therapy, sleepless nights and isolation - what it's like having a mental health illness during coronavirus

Since the country went into lockdown, restrictions on leaving the house, seeing friends, or visiting family have taken a toll on all of us.

Reports of feeling lonely or isolated have increased, while many people have begun experiencing anxiety for the first time in their life.

Mental health charities in Greater Manchester have reported unprecedented numbers of calls from people in need of help, since the country went into lockdown over six weeks ago.

As people come to terms with a drastic change in every day life, what has the coronavirus pandemic been like for people with existing mental health conditions?

We spoke to four people from across the region, who have been diagnosed with depression, post traumatic stress disorder, personality disorders and anxiety.

Whilst every person's experience of lockdown is unique; sleepless nights, intrusive thoughts, and increasing feelings of isolation and loneliness were the most commonly reported issues.

Others have faced cancelled or delayed appointments, or a change in the way they receive therapy and counselling.

20-year-old Dareo Knott, from Salford, was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder two years ago, following a childhood of neglect and abuse.

Dareo Knott has a borderline personality disorder (Dareo Knott)

His main trigger is loneliness.

Dareo is part of several Facebook Groups and before COVID-19, would regularly meet people with similar heath issues for coffee.

"As soon as lockdown happened a lot of challenges arose for me," Dario said.

"My everyday life now means I usually won't get out of bed until the afternoon and I can go from one extreme of being really productive, to the other where I can't even get out of bed.

"I moved into a new house-share in January but I don't really have the capacity to involve myself with new people so I'm feeling very isolated.

"My friends are really struggling to handle my behaviour and I can't see any of my family."

Dario is studying vocals at the British Institute of Modern Music, and says he is struggling to motivate himself for online lectures in the same way he would for face-to-face lectures.

"More than ever, people with mental health issues are being put to one side because it is such a silent thing and we are left to fend for ourselves," Dario said.

"My best advice to other people who are struggling is something I always say, and that is what you are feeling is temporary.

"It is okay to feel the way you are now because things change and things can happen."

Georgina is 35-years-old and lives in Ashton-under-Lyne. She has suffered from mental health issues since the age of twelve.

She has major depressive disorder and would usually see a clinical psychologist once a week, and a community psychiatric nurse.

Over the last two years, Georgina's heath issues have led her to lose her job as a teaching assistant and meant that social services became involved in the care of her teenage son.

"For the first couple of weeks of lockdown I actually felt quite positive," Georgina said.

"It sounds really bad but finally now everyone understands how hard life can be when you are stuck at home."

Georgina said as lockdown has continued, she has found it increasingly hard to care for her son, who would usually be at school, on her own.

"Because of my previous experience with social services, I feel like there is a lot of pressure on me to make sure I am home-schooling him properly," she said.

"It has made home not a very nice place to be at times."

Georgina waited two years to receive face-to-face therapy for her major depressive disorder - which has now been moved to telephone appointments.

She was told her therapy would be moving to once every two weeks, instead of the normal weekly sessions she was used to.

"It is really difficult doing therapy over the phone," Georgina said.

"When you are in a room with someone you can read their body language, which is really important.

"I am talking about abuse I went through as a child which I can't do at home with my son present, so I am having to get in my car and park somewhere quiet to do it.

"We have been trying video calls too but I have a phobia of cameras so that has been hard for me."

Georgina was due to have an appointment with her psychiatrist this week about lowering the amount of anti-depressants she is taking, but she says she hasn't been told if this is still going head.

"I think the mental health services are trying their best but at the same time it is really difficult to talk about things over the phone, and I am missing that human connection," Georgina added.

Natalie is from Salford and was diagnosed with depression at the age of twelve. She also has a personality disorder.

Her mental health issues stem from being sexually abused as a young child.

Natalie usually sits on a park bench to clear her thoughts but worries she'll be judged during lockdown (Manchester Evening News)

"I didn't expect lockdown to affect my mental health the way it has done," Natalie said.

"I usually cope by sleeping or going out a few times a day for a walk to clear my head, but now I am really restricted.

"Before lockdown I was pretty bad at sleeping anyway because of the my nightmares, but since lockdown I haven't been able to get to sleep until 9am and then I only sleep for a couple of hours.

"I think it's because I have no escape. I have so much going on in my head and it's all getting mixed up into one."

Normally, Natalie would look after her best friend's son, or her niece, which would offer her a welcome distraction from her thoughts.

"I can't spend time with any of them now and it's really hard," Natalie said.

"I used to go outside and sit on a bench for a few hours but I can't even do that now because I am worried about being judged by my neighbours."

Paige Wilmot, 27, from Stockport, has depression, anxiety and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD).

Paige Wilmot has depression, anxiety and PTSD (Paige Wilmot)

The mum was diagnosed with depression at 16 and placed on anti-depressants, before developing PTSD following a car crash in 2015.

"Coronavirus is affecting me horrifically," Paige said.

"Usually if I was feeling bad I would just get in my car and somewhere for the day or see friends, and I can't do that now.

"I am feeling quite isolated from friends and family and I feel emotional and trapped.

Paige says although she lives with her partner and four children, she feels completely isolated.

"Sometimes if I was feeling low I would just walk to my doctors and ask to see someone, but obviously I can't do that now," Paige said.

"Being stuck inside causes a lot more anger and upset in the home because we are all constantly on top of each other - it is very intense.

"I am now working from home and the children are not at school so I'm not getting any switch off from work or the the kids."

Paige says listening to podcasts and watching online courses, are helping her to relax and sleep at night, which is something she usually struggles with.

"I think it is brilliant how much support is out there from the mental health charities and I would urge anyone who needs to, to reach out," Paige said.

If you or someone you know is suffering from mental health issues, please use the helplines listed in the article above.

If you believe you, or someone else is in immediate danger of harm, call 999.

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