Brave Stacey Solomon broke down admitting she felt "cruel" struggling to breastfeed Rex on today's Loose Women.
The mother-of-three, who welcomed baby Rex with partner Joe Swash last year, confessed she "romanticised" breastfeeding while she was pregnant.
Emotional Stacey said Rex had a healthy birth but ended up losing a whole pound and got really small.
Stacey didn't feel pushed by society to breastfeed but admitted she put pressure on herself during the difficult time with her newborn.
She explained: "When I couldn’t, I got myself in an emotional, hormonal rut of not being able to let it go. I didn’t want to let it go.
"He was also really quite small. He ended up losing nearly a whole pound, he did get really small.
"Looking back now, I almost feel cruel that I carried on trying. You do feel like, 'I could have just given him a bottle'."
As Stacey broke down in tears she was comforted by her caring fellow Loose Women panellists.
Nadia Sawalha said: "Stacey don't say those words to yourself. You were trying to do what's best."
Christine Lampard added: "Loads of women at home are going through what you described."
Stacey admitted she put pressure on herself throughout her experience as breastfeeding is seen is such a "warm and positive light".
She explained: "I imagined that all throughout my pregnancy having this wonderful experience.
"just couldn’t do it. I really wanted to do it and I just felt like I didn’t know if I was being lazy or I couldn’t take the pain.
"You just start thinking, 'This is what my body is made to do, why aren’t I just pushing through and doing it?' I thought i was bad at the job."
*Loose Women airs weekdays on ITV at 12.30pm
