Amanda Kloots shared a moving tribute to her late husband Nick Cordero on the anniversary of the day he was admitted to hospital.
Broadway and TV actor Nick died aged 41 after he suffered with complications in his battle with coronavirus in July last year amid the pandemic.
It's been a year since Amanda, 39, drove her late husband Nick to the emergency room at Cedar Sinai on March 30 in 2020.
In an emotional post, the fitness instructor said her "heart breaks" because she wished she could go back in time to make the most of her last moments with Nick.
She wrote: "My heart breaks today. I wish I could go back in time, run to him as he was walking away, grab him, kiss him and hold him in my arms. On April 1, he went on the ventilator and I never spoke to him again.
"To anyone, who like me, that dropped their person off at the hospital never to really “see” them again, I’m thinking and praying for you today. This day is just hard, there’s no other way to say it."
Amanda revealed she thought her late husband would only be in hospital for a couple of hours yet it was the last day she saw "Nick as Nick".
Her memory of those precious final moments has become a blur.
She added: "March 30, 2020 Elvis and I drove Nick to the emergency room at Cedar Sinai.
"With Covid restrictions in place, we didn’t know which entrance was even open, so I left him on the corner. We didn’t hug. We didn’t kiss goodbye. We couldn’t.
"It was clear he was sick with something and we couldn’t take any risks. I don’t even know if he said bye to Elvis or if we said, “I love you.” I told him I’d stay nearby and to call me when he’s done.
"We walked to The Grove to kill time. We thought it would be a couple hours. That was the last day I saw Nick as Nick."
On a final sad note, Amanda asked her 652k followers to do their part in the killer virus for those like Nick who never made it home from hospital.
She added: " @mariashriver wrote yesterday, “Rather than mourning what was, let me use this time as a chance to reflect on how we can make things better than the way they were before.”
"We’ve come far in a year with what we know about treating and preventing this virus. Do your part, continue doing your part. For Nick and every COVID patient that didn’t make it home."
Amanda continues to raise her son Elvis whom she shared with her late husband Nick.
