Amanda Holden thinks about her son Theo every day after he was tragically stillborn at seven months in 2011.
The Britain's Got Talent judge said that the strength of her husband Chris Hughes, and two daughters Hollie and Lexie, has helped her cope with the heartbreak.
She explained in her autobiography No Holding Back about the traumatic moment she was told her baby was no longer alive, and has spent the past seven years processing her grief.
Amanda, 48, told You Magazine that feelings of loss are "always there", she added: "Theo will always be part of our family."
Amanda says she deals with her loss by thinking about what her son would be doing: "He would have been a year older than Hollie. I often look at the children in the year above her and think, 'Oh yes, today Theo would have been doing this'.
"It’s not something to get over, but I’ve got my head round it, and I've got my amazing hubby, and our love for each other and our family got us through."
The Heart FM radio presenter also ran a half-marathon in support of Theo's Hope, a charity that she set up to find bereavement counsellors at Tommy’s Stillbirth Research Centre at St Mary’s Hospital in Manchester.
Amanda has , previously saying she imagined her son playing football in the back garden with her two daughters.
She had miscarried a son at 16 weeks in 2010 and was seven months pregnant with Theo when a scan revealed his heart had stopped.
Distraught and unable to endure giving birth, she and Chris opted for a caesarean at West Middlesex University Hospital, where Amanda had undergone midwifery training for an ITV documentary called Out Of My Depth in 2009.
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